Thursday, April 21, 2005
hello... today my topic of disscussion is on relationships, which of course includes frenships la. yups. do you go thru many frenships problems? sure you do. what about losing "people who seemed like your best fren" frens and making new "best" frens? everyone surely has been thru that. i jus wanna say that it's quite sad that you lose your best frens. do you feel that way too? maybe when were young, we didn't exactly know how to treasure frenships, but as you grow older, do you look back at the times which you've spent with your ex-best-frens? sometimes, you lose the frenship in between you as you've not come into contact for a long time. but, if you do make an effort, you can actually have still have them as your frens. i have an example. mine of course. i had this really 2 best frns in pri 3. that time, we didn't have cca yet right, do when we were talking together, then we would say that we would go to the same cca and stuff. i tell you something, that was foolish thinking on our part. i think when we changed classes in pri 4, we suddenly just stopped talking to each other. and it was not gradual, it was totally abrupt. i guess they would have made new frens and i was of no use anymore. not really, but ya. i also made new frens la, but, i will always remember that we were once best frens la. i wish that we could stay as frens 4eva, but that's impossible. one of my so-called best frens, when we stopped talking, she totally don't want to look at me at all la. i mean she just keeps avoiding. i must say, i also did avoid her, but i just became fed up with it and didn't care less.it's quite sad when realationships like this come to an end don't you think? and also, we did not go into the same cca. like duh. i can even still remember my best frens frm p1 and 2. kindergarten you ask? too young liao. and i have a bad memory. i only remember significant stuff. even now, me and my frens from my pri school which went to other schools, i'm like having lesser topics to talk to them about and trust me, we would gradually drift apart. i feel so sad and do not want such a thing to happen la. but it's almost inevitable. *sigh* in my class now, i have a fren whom i did talk to quite alot in term 1. we were in the same cca and jap class la. but when school reopened, she just suddenly stops talking to me. it's quite sad you know. i didn't even know what had happened. was it something that she hated about me? or what? i really wish i could read people's minds at times. then i would know what they are thinking about me, instead of talking behind my back. you know what i mean? what makes it worse is that i have to see her everyday, during cca and also durind 3rd lang. she's sitting right besides me and now, i have no one to talk to during jap lesson anymore. so most of the time i just talk to myself. pathetic right? i know. okay. but it's also quite amazing how frenships can form so quickly that you don't even remember when you first talked to your "new fren". i'm always like that. actually, i wished i do belong to a group more. haiz. too bad for me. i'm those kind who is just part of every grping like that la. just like [almost] everybody's fren. to have a group which you cab really belong to right, it's relly good. you can be like really close to them. though you may not tell them your deepest darkest secrets, but still, you can share your stuffs.actually, i do have a group. that has followe dme throughout my life. betcha can't guess it. let me tell you the group members of my [special] group... me myself and i. sorry if it's so anti-climax. so anyway, just a last word in all of this frenships stuff. the person that you've known for [almost] all your life, might not exactly be your bestest fren in this world.i've two peeps in my life whu're like that. one since p1, one since babies? i dunno. so ya.
alwaes remember: frenships are like the sea. it is ever-changing.

xinru**
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